Nick

I work with this guy named nick. He is the most annoying person on the face of the earth sometimes! Basically he goes around insulting everyone about everything, mainly their religion. He claims that there is no God. Well if there is no God, how is there a Heaven or hell? Where are you going to go when you die? In m y opinion I don’t like the people who go around and shove their religion in your face. Some people don’t want to hear about God and that is just going to affect them later in life. If someone comes to me one on one then I will tell what I believe but if they don’t then I won’t. Nick thinks it is perfectly fine to make people feel like crap all the time. He is emotionless, rude, and cold-hearted.

The Limo

We are renting a limo for prom. It’s just the closest group of friends and our dates. We get an upgrade on the limo for no extra cost! Now we have room to relax and not be so squished. All of a sudden one of the girls in our group tells everyone that she invited one more couple. This really gets me because she didn’t discuss this with anyone. We wanted the extra room and I personally don’t want people I don’t know in my pictures! It’s a total mess and in going to talk to her about it. Hopefully it will change soon.

I Can't Help But Wait

I know I haven't written in a while but a lot of things have been going on in my life. Today I am not writing about something that aggravates me, I will be writing about my current life and struggles.

Has something ever happened to you and people tell you, you are going to be a stronger person from it? What does that mean? Does it mean that I was weak before, I couldn’t handle what life through at me and now I will? What if I become a stronger person from this but me weak about other things? Does that mean that I didn’t grow from that experience?

On March 20, 2009 Oscar Nathan Hernandez Jr. died. He was my ex-boyfriend of about a year. He was the first guy I ever fell in love with and I still am in love with him. Everyday people come up to me asking how I am doing and telling me that everything will be okay. I will learn to cope and when I do I will become stronger. I put on a mask everyday to try and hide what I'm feeling. I don’t want pity because it would take all of the focus off Oscar. I have never felt more alone, secluded, and completely destroyed in my life. When I found out it was the world had no air and no matter how much I tried to catch my breath I never could. Jordan Sparks No Air lyrics say:
But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air

I always thought this was a good song but I never fully understood it until he was gone. Everyday I find it hard just to wake up and go to school. Everything I see, and every song I hear reminds me of him in some way. I wish I could have one more day, one more kiss, just to tell him that I love him. But I can’t so I must love with all of my heart and live like I know he would want me to be. I can't
help but wait until I'm with him again.

The Computer Bridge

In computer we are learning about bridges. I don’t understand why we are doing this because it has absolute nothing to do with computers. When I signed up for that class I thought we would be studying the make of a computer, making websites, ECT. But now we're learning about bridges and engineers and it is totally irrelevant.

The Walk

Both I and my mom are trying to get in shape. Last night we went on a walk around our neighborhood and they were these teenagers laying in their yard. Well when we walked by I hear one of them say, "Oh my God, that’s a mom walking with her!" I don’t see what the big deal was. Just because she is a mom means she can go on a walk to get in shape? They acted completely discussed that I was with her. So just because you may not have a good relationship with your mom doesn’t mean I can’t. I love my mom and I thank her for going with me and for doing everything else for me. So people just need to get over it, and find out what they're missing.

I am My Mothers Daughter

My Mom sticks up for me when I won’t stick up for myself. I would say that in an arguing situation I am more like my dad. I’m laid back and I really don’t care what goes down just as long as no one is getting hurt. Unless of course I am really enthusiastic about the subject, then I turn into my mom. Anyway, on some points I wont stand up for myself and if I do it is extremely hard. For instance, my teacher wouldn’t let me retake a test when everyone else was able to. He said I couldn’t because I missed the day of the retest and never can in for the five day window. So I sucked it up and went on with my day. I told my mom later and she went off. Although she was very polite, in the beginning, about this subject the teacher didn’t want to be confronted about it. Then since he gave my mom attitude she gave much more back. Now in that class I sit there and do my work while some days I feel his glare on my back. This makes me so mad because when my mom protects me people wind up hating us. I love my mom so much but I wish that my friends and teachers would treat us like two different people, because we are. Don’t hate me just because my mom made you a little upset.

She's Almost Gone

This week I’m not writing about something that made me mad, I’m writing about something that made me very happy!
At my job there is this girl I can not stand. I think it’s safe to say I am on the brink of hating her. She is just the rudest person I have ever met and of course she decides to annoy me. Every time we work together I always hope and pray one of us would be sent home early so I wouldn’t have to see her. Just yesterday she asked Fabian, our manager, how to go about getting a transfer. When she said this I gasped and got the biggest smile on my face. I know that I shouldn’t have reacted like that but I couldn’t help it. She might actually be out of my life! Thank God when I reacted only Fabian saw. He started to laugh at me because he knows I don’t like her. I couldn’t help but laugh too. This makes me so happy to know she is one step from being gone!

My Little Irritation

For some reason everything has been irritating me lately. In third period this girl was eating hot cheetos. She was smacking so loud I couldn't concentrate! Then this guy behind me this boy was tapping his fingers on the desk and I really wanted to punch him in the face. I don’t know way everything is bothering me and ironically that bothers me! I think it is because I am so exhausted from work but I am so busy I have no time to rest so I guess I will just be annoyed for a long time.

Are you or are you not a Scan Hog?

Are you a scan hog? First let me explain what that is. I work at Sonic and there are those few people who feel they have to scan 100% of the time. if there is a scan they will literally run across the store just for that one scan.

These people do get under my skin, but the people who DIG under my skin are the people who will not scan simply for the fact that they are lazy.

I was told by my boss that i was being evaluated for a promotion. He mentioned some things that I should focus on improving. One of those things is to stay and help inside before going to scan. Some people feel that I am not doing my part, but I disagree because i am inside bagging the food, making drinks, and clean a lot! They get frustrated with me because they are lazy and don’t want to scan. I get the feeling that if we were to switch places then the cleaning and other thing would not get done. So if they want to get angry with me all i can say is go right ahead. I’m going to do what I need.

Are You Fake?

One thing I really can’t stand is fake people. I don’t understand why you have to make yourself something your not just for the approval of a few people. I say a few because most people don’t like fake people so why would you do that? You can tell when people are being fake, well most of the time at least. You can tell if they dress different or talk different. One thing i hate more than those people are the people who like they’re just waiting for you to tell them something so that they can go behind your back. Fake people are stupid to me. Just grow up and live the life you want.

Why Don't You Just Say It?

I’m the kind of girl that likes it when the guy makes the first move. I don’t understand why guys don’t tell you if they like you. What the worst that could happen, they say they don’t feel the same way? I know I don’t like rejection but everyone eventually gets over it. It just makes no since to me why they don’t say anything. Almost every guy i have met tells girls straight out, so why doesn’t he? Its seems so stupid to me.

Adult Thumb Sucker

It's normal for a child to suck their thumb, but when do they grow out of it? For some it six or seven, for others it maybe twelve. We are all different but we all usually grow out of it eventually. Then there are the few who are teenagers/adults. You see them in your classroom, in the office, walking down the streets and you just stop to think how gross that is. To me there is nothing more sickening then sticking a dirty finger in your mouth for comfort. Plus you look so childish when you do it. If you ever want people to take you seriously you defiantly do not suck your thumb while you talk to them.