Nick

I work with this guy named nick. He is the most annoying person on the face of the earth sometimes! Basically he goes around insulting everyone about everything, mainly their religion. He claims that there is no God. Well if there is no God, how is there a Heaven or hell? Where are you going to go when you die? In m y opinion I don’t like the people who go around and shove their religion in your face. Some people don’t want to hear about God and that is just going to affect them later in life. If someone comes to me one on one then I will tell what I believe but if they don’t then I won’t. Nick thinks it is perfectly fine to make people feel like crap all the time. He is emotionless, rude, and cold-hearted.

The Limo

We are renting a limo for prom. It’s just the closest group of friends and our dates. We get an upgrade on the limo for no extra cost! Now we have room to relax and not be so squished. All of a sudden one of the girls in our group tells everyone that she invited one more couple. This really gets me because she didn’t discuss this with anyone. We wanted the extra room and I personally don’t want people I don’t know in my pictures! It’s a total mess and in going to talk to her about it. Hopefully it will change soon.

I Can't Help But Wait

I know I haven't written in a while but a lot of things have been going on in my life. Today I am not writing about something that aggravates me, I will be writing about my current life and struggles.

Has something ever happened to you and people tell you, you are going to be a stronger person from it? What does that mean? Does it mean that I was weak before, I couldn’t handle what life through at me and now I will? What if I become a stronger person from this but me weak about other things? Does that mean that I didn’t grow from that experience?

On March 20, 2009 Oscar Nathan Hernandez Jr. died. He was my ex-boyfriend of about a year. He was the first guy I ever fell in love with and I still am in love with him. Everyday people come up to me asking how I am doing and telling me that everything will be okay. I will learn to cope and when I do I will become stronger. I put on a mask everyday to try and hide what I'm feeling. I don’t want pity because it would take all of the focus off Oscar. I have never felt more alone, secluded, and completely destroyed in my life. When I found out it was the world had no air and no matter how much I tried to catch my breath I never could. Jordan Sparks No Air lyrics say:
But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air

I always thought this was a good song but I never fully understood it until he was gone. Everyday I find it hard just to wake up and go to school. Everything I see, and every song I hear reminds me of him in some way. I wish I could have one more day, one more kiss, just to tell him that I love him. But I can’t so I must love with all of my heart and live like I know he would want me to be. I can't
help but wait until I'm with him again.

The Computer Bridge

In computer we are learning about bridges. I don’t understand why we are doing this because it has absolute nothing to do with computers. When I signed up for that class I thought we would be studying the make of a computer, making websites, ECT. But now we're learning about bridges and engineers and it is totally irrelevant.

The Walk

Both I and my mom are trying to get in shape. Last night we went on a walk around our neighborhood and they were these teenagers laying in their yard. Well when we walked by I hear one of them say, "Oh my God, that’s a mom walking with her!" I don’t see what the big deal was. Just because she is a mom means she can go on a walk to get in shape? They acted completely discussed that I was with her. So just because you may not have a good relationship with your mom doesn’t mean I can’t. I love my mom and I thank her for going with me and for doing everything else for me. So people just need to get over it, and find out what they're missing.

I am My Mothers Daughter

My Mom sticks up for me when I won’t stick up for myself. I would say that in an arguing situation I am more like my dad. I’m laid back and I really don’t care what goes down just as long as no one is getting hurt. Unless of course I am really enthusiastic about the subject, then I turn into my mom. Anyway, on some points I wont stand up for myself and if I do it is extremely hard. For instance, my teacher wouldn’t let me retake a test when everyone else was able to. He said I couldn’t because I missed the day of the retest and never can in for the five day window. So I sucked it up and went on with my day. I told my mom later and she went off. Although she was very polite, in the beginning, about this subject the teacher didn’t want to be confronted about it. Then since he gave my mom attitude she gave much more back. Now in that class I sit there and do my work while some days I feel his glare on my back. This makes me so mad because when my mom protects me people wind up hating us. I love my mom so much but I wish that my friends and teachers would treat us like two different people, because we are. Don’t hate me just because my mom made you a little upset.

She's Almost Gone

This week I’m not writing about something that made me mad, I’m writing about something that made me very happy!
At my job there is this girl I can not stand. I think it’s safe to say I am on the brink of hating her. She is just the rudest person I have ever met and of course she decides to annoy me. Every time we work together I always hope and pray one of us would be sent home early so I wouldn’t have to see her. Just yesterday she asked Fabian, our manager, how to go about getting a transfer. When she said this I gasped and got the biggest smile on my face. I know that I shouldn’t have reacted like that but I couldn’t help it. She might actually be out of my life! Thank God when I reacted only Fabian saw. He started to laugh at me because he knows I don’t like her. I couldn’t help but laugh too. This makes me so happy to know she is one step from being gone!